Post by BlacKitten on Mar 19, 2014 17:41:43 GMT -5
“It hurts,” he pressed his hand onto his chest as if he could reach out and grab his own heart. “Heavy… sinking… slow…,” his mind spoke in a monotonous tone, each word echoing inside of his head.
Ba Bum! Ba Bum! Ba Bum!
The symphony of his life sang in a low beating rhythm, almost crying in a desperate hope to cling onto some string of faith. Otherwise, it had nothing to hold onto for it to pull itself out of the deep abyss without a bottom. He knew that he was alive, yet he felt like he was dead.
A voice, speaking to him, yet could not be seen, he heard it as that was all he could do, “Maru… the boy who waited, so bored in his life, he casted away his self, lying to himself. Not bored now, are ya? Because, this isn’t boredom anymore; it’s loneliness. Welcome to reality!” He knew this voice very well because this was his own voice. Not only did his own body betray him, even his own self abandoned him, splitting off into its own abstract entity. He didn’t want to hear this voice anymore, but there was nothing to stop it. Plugging his ears wouldn’t work. In fact, he much rather hear El Drago’s silly nonsense than this dark voice.
“Oh… silly Maru, you can fight, alright! But only enough to defend yourself, that’s what martial arts were for, self-defense. Protecting yourself is all you can do; you don’t know how to project someone else. You’re too weak, unable to protect an insignificant little girl. The only friend you have is me! I cannot die; I’m you! We die together if the worst comes to be.”
“Shut up,” Maru muttered insolently at whatever inside his head.
“What a silly little power you have. You can create whatever through drawings, yet you can’t even create a single friend. Your imagination is enough to create me, and what more do you need? Everything you make is a lie! Who gave you the name, Maru? You did! You created yourself! A boy pretending to play panda, distracting yourself from that one little flaw, the inability to make it real. Isn’t it funny? That girl died while never knowing that you were actually human. It probably would have made her feel better if you have been human, but when was the last time you showed your human self?”
All he could do was listening, obediently listening to the truth that he decorated with lies.
“Time moves so slow in this funny little world, but we’re running of it. If you keep on dawdling there, you’ll die!”
“I don’t care if I die. Besides, El Drago wouldn’t kill me,” his voice made its first counterargument.
“You don’t care if you die, huh? Then by all means, DIE! But, that would mean we would lose, losing against these low-lives. If you’re so clever, then you know what to do, right?”
“Yeah…, kill everyone on this ship, along with myself,” Maru sternly stated back to his darker self. A suicide plan hatched into his head, one that was more sinister than his usual ones.
“You’ve always taken advantage of everything. Even now, you’ll take advantage of your own emotional breakdown. How typical of you…” What the voice meant was that everyone believed that Maru was under the state of melancholia, and they were right.
Regaining his sense of vision after a long time, he could finally make out the figure charging straight at him with a knife at the last second. Leaning back a bit, the motionless panda accepted the blade being swung towards his chest, enough to let it slice straight across his fur and fluff. No blood slipped out as he evaded it to let his own disguise be ripped open where a gap could be shown as his true self.
As the knife-wielding user slid by to ease his momentum, Maru gripped harshly on his own head, tugging the panda head off as it was designed to be before using it as a cushion to block the thrown bricks at him. A black haired face with an apathetic look had finally revealed itself with his tears dried up.
At the same time as his eyes rolling into a glance towards the bricks-wielding navigator, he shot out a punch straight up into the attacker’s jaw. What made it completely unexpected was that the arm used to attack came straight out of his own chest as if he had a third arm! His right panda arm dangled like a sleeve by his side, and his real human arm had come out of hiding, using the cut he received a few seconds ago to slip out. The sneaky uppercut he unleashed knocked the man off his feet, hurling the figure to crash onto the deck.
The foreign black-haired figure stood while emotionlessly glaring at his flexing fingers, “Been a while since I punched with my bare hand,” he coldly spoke out loud, still under the influence of the polarity of personalities and devoidness of emotions.